Honorable Circuit Judge Dedee Costello
Panama City, Florida, 32401
First, I would like to talk about my daughter, Haleigh, who everyone called Booger Butt and let you know what this man has taken away from this world. She was born on November 28, 2006 and was most beautiful baby I had ever seen. She was going to make a difference, I just knew it. She was so awesome to be around and so outgoing. She loved everybody and everybody loved her, or so I thought. She loved dogs. My mom had a dog named Precious and every dog that she saw she called it Precious. Booger would light up the room when she walked in, anywhere she went. She always had a smile on her face, the most beautiful smile you had ever seen. Her Maw and Paw adored her. She was her Pawpaw’s world, her Great Grandfather. I miss her so much I can’t stand it. I miss the way she said I lushs you and I would say I lushs you too Booger and then she would say I too. I miss the way she said night, night. I miss the way she said no whenever you asked her a question, her answer was always no, I miss watching her play with her toys, I miss sitting on the couch and waiting for her to bring me the next book she wanted me to read to her; she would keep bringing me books, and when I read them all she would bring me the same ones back. She could sit there and listen to me read to her all day long while she pointed out and said all the animals and colors she saw.
Booger was my world and on December 7, 2008, my world was gone. I woke up to the most horrifying thing I’ve ever seen in my life. My little girl, my baby, was lifeless. I was just praying that the EMT’s would come out and say she was okay, but in the back of my head, I knew what I saw and I knew she wasn’t okay. That morning I wanted to die. I wanted to curl up in a ball and die. It never occurred to me that someone had done this to her, not for split second. I blame myself everyday for not being there when she needed me the most. This has changed my life in so many ways. If I ever have children again, I will never be able to trust anyone with them. I feel very scared when I’m alone and I’m always looking over my shoulder. Holidays aren’t holidays anymore, there just another day, but more depressing. Every night before I go to sleep I think about Booger, and every morning when I wake up I’m hoping she’ll be there. But she never is, and she never will be. I can’t even explain to you the kind of dreams that I have every night about her. Someone’s hurting her and I can’t get to her. I miss her so much and I wish I could tell her how sorry I am for this happening to her and how sorry I am for not being there to save her. I will always carry that heavy burden on my shoulders of me not being there for her.
I never thought someone could be so cruel, especially someone that I loved and trusted with my daughter’s life. Never once did it cross my mind that he would ever lay one hand on her. Even when the investigators told me that they thought it was him I didn’t believe them. My mind was going a hundred miles an hour. I wish I would have opened my eyes the day they tried to tell me. I just wouldn’t let it enter my mind that that was even a probability. It makes me sick to my stomach when I think back to when it happened and to know that I was by the side of the man who killed my daughter for two days after he did it.
He disgusts me. I hate him! Because of him, my daughter is gone and is never coming back. He beat my daughter to death like she was nothing. He has no regard for human life what so ever. How could someone do that? I never thought that the person Booger called daddy for a year and a half would do this to her. I can’t imagine the pain she went through but I dream about it every night. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about it and think about her and think about him and how mad I am for him being alive right now when she’s not. For him to be able to breathe, eat, and sleep right now, what she is no longer able to do. Not a day goes by that I don’t wish I would’ve been able to do something; that I would’ve known how sick of a person he is. I wish I‘d checked on her that night. I wish I wouldn’t have drunk a drop that night, I wish I had never drank anything. I can wish and wish and wish but it’s not going to change anything. She’s still gone and he’s still alive. Justice will never be served in my eyes. Booger had to suffer for I don’t know how long and no matter what he gets sentenced, she’s still going to be gone and not know why. It’s not fair. It’s not fair for a little baby to have to go through something like that. A grown person shouldn’t have to go through something like that, let alone a little baby. I can’t imagine how scared she was when he was beating her, not knowing why this was happening to her. I wish I could torture him like he tortured her. He has caused so much pain for me and my family, but most of all, for Booger. We will never forget her; we’ll make sure he doesn’t either. There is a question that will haunt me for the rest of my life and that is why. Why would he do such a horrible thing to such a beautiful baby girl who never did anything to him but love him? Why did he choose her? Why not me? I guess I will never know the answer to that question because there’s no answer that would explain what he did. I have decided that the answer is evil. He is an evil, evil person who doesn’t deserve to breathe another day. He blind sighted and betrayed everyone in my family. I trusted him with Haleigh’s life, and had no reason not to. He would’ve never been around her if I would’ve even thought for a split second that he would hurt her.
Please give him what he deserves. He has no regard for human life. Though it’s not nearly as painful as the pain he put my daughter through, at least he will be gone. At least he will know fear. Put fear in him, just like he put fear in Haleigh. There will be one less evil person in this world, that can’t hurt anybody ever again. I wish you could’ve met her, you would’ve fallen in love with her the moment you saw her. He has taken away a person, a human being, a life, a precious baby, a beautiful daughter, my daughter, a granddaughter, a niece, and a friend, my best friend. I hope you consider everything I have just said and please come to the right, justifiable decision. Please give him the death penalty. Please give justice for my babygirl. Please allow booger, my daughter Haleigh Marie, to be at peace, knowing that the person who killed her is going to pay for it.
162 Policeman Club Road
Falling Waters, West Virginia, 25419