Prayer of Choices

by Jeremy Brian Yancey


Heavenly father please here me tonight. I need so
much guidance to live my life right. Sometimes the
pressure is so hard to bear. I often wonder if anyone cares.
How can I wake up and face a new day, knowing I must
live my life this crazy way? Heavenly father, forgive
all my sins.

Give me strength to resist the wild life I desire. Help
me escape temptation and the fire. Please help my family
whose eyes silently plead for me not to do wrong and
they pray for me. God bless our mothers who cry every night
worrying we'll be killed by someone in a fight.

Heavenly father please answer my prayers. Please
let me know that you're listening up there. When will it
end? What is it all for? To prove to my homies I'm down,
I'm hardcore? Sometimes I wonder how I will die. By
a bullet wound or a knife in my side? Heavenly father
please hear me tonight.

Show me the way, Lord show me the light. Give my
heart peace so I won't have to fight. Thank you for your
forgiveness, and for showing me the light. And most of all
thanks for hearing my prayer.



GRIEF JOURNEY

I look in the mirror, but the one who looks back
Is a woman much older than me.
Her eyes are quite dull and heavy with pain
And I canít say I like what I see.
I want to move on in this journey through grief
Holding my beautiful son in my heart.
And the roadís all uphill and rocky and hard;
And so frightening from here at the start.
So please stay close by as I take my first steps
And hear me if ever I call.
I promise Iíll give it the best I have got.
If I know youíll be there if I fall.
One day I might reach the top of the hill,
And look back from where I have come.
And the sweetness of victory will fill my heart.
Over the battle Iíve fought and Iíve won.
This grief is perhaps the cruelest of pains
That a mother should have to endure.
But it will not destroy the rest of my life
If youíre there by my side I feel sure.
And when my lifeís done and I can go home,
To my family in Heaven above,
My son will be there, his arms open wide,
In a greeting thatís filled with pure love.

--unknown--



You Didn't Say Goodbye

Why did you have to leave?
You didn't say goodbye.
Why couldn't I protect you?
Why did you have to die?
As you slipped from this world,
Did you feel any pain?
Did you feel that you were fading?
Did you call my name?
When they left you
In the dark, alone
Did you cry out,
"Mama come and take me home?"
Did you wish for one more hug
Before you had to leave?
I'd give anything for one,
I can barely breathe.

I miss you more each passing day,
When will I awake
To find you laughing, standing there
This just a big mistake?
The grief comes pouring over me,
Each second of each day.
I do what I have to do,
but the tears stay in my way.

I want so much to see you,
To have you here to hold.
You didn't even say goodbye,
Why did you have to go?>br>
Kim Lasater~~2008 (C)
In loving memory of my beautiful girl Kaylin Mathews




I have a poem my daughter Lisa wrote while in school and it was selected as the best for her class. They were restricted to only 3 lines. This was written a short time before her death and right after she got a butterfly tattoo. The poem was read at her memorial service held by the school--Their Dean wept as he read it as it was very emotional. - Laura Maas

LIKE A BUTTERFLY,
I'LL SPREAD MY WINGS AND BEGIN.
I WILL FLY AWAY...
By
Lisa Maas




In memory of my daughter Sonia

If we could have a life-time wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our heartsfor yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we tried.
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we cried.
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories,
We only wanted you

Val Lewies South Africa




missingmichael
Michael, My Son

On the Night God took you from me,
The pain in my heart was unbearable,
I wanted to hug you, tell you I loved you,
And let you know that I was here,
And everything would be okay.
But you see, I didn't get that chance,
They would not allow me near you.
You see, I was told it was a crime scene,
And I might mess up evidence.
My son, Michael, what had happened?

I wonder where the time went?
I still need more time with you.
Your sons and family need more time.
I ask a lot of whys??
No one has any answers.
And still there are no answers.

With people all around me
I feel alone inside,
A part of me died when your were taken,
Words of comfort, just words,
No one seems to know what to say,
And the words don’t matter,
They are just words,
No one knows how I feel.
My heart is breaking
Michael, My Son, you see was murdered.
I can’t seem to hide,

I thought I might be dreaming
I thought I'd awake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening,
It’s a dream and I would wake soon."
My Son, Michael, I am awake
And I still can’t believe you are gone.

Again I wiped away the tears,
On the day that you were laid to rest
Again my heart broke,
It was so unfair, such a cruel and vicious act.
Again, I am filled with anger.
I want you home with us.

I wonder if the pain will end,
And mostly, I wonder when??
It's hard to be without you,
Hear your voice,
See your smile,
See those blue eyes,
Tell you I love you.
And wish there was more time to tell you
How very important you were to me
And how much I Loved You.

There are days that seem so long,
Especially, when I am alone.
Sometimes, I just sit crying,
I’m missing you so much.
I wish we'd had more time
It was so unfair that your life ended
So tragically..
And, Again Why???

I know God has his wings around you
And holding you close
And keeping you safe
And above all no more pain.

I love and miss you
My Son, Michael.

Mom
August 22, 2006
 

               M - is for loving to meet new people.
               E - is for every lasting friendships, she had withher friends.
               L - is for loving life, her friends and her cat.(Bug)
               I - is for being interested and trusting otherspeople.
               S - is for her beautiful smile we all miss everyday.
               S - is for sharing with other people her compassion.
               A - is for actions that spoke Louder than words thatshe cared about                    people.
                   The is what we all miss aboutMelissa (Missy)
                   Written by her Mom, Sue Ryder

Sweet Pea”
I will never know why we were forced to say goodbye,
With no reason or explanation given as to why.
One woman’s anger spun completely out of control,
Injuries your delicate body could not with hold,
As they lowered you forever in that deep, dark, hole.
“Why?” I ask Jesus, Why take such a perfect little jewel?
You were hurt beyond survival even more than we all knew.
She shook you to death, until you gasped completely blue in the face,
Later we were told that this was Oklahoma’s worst case.
You were taken before Mother’s Day! ,
one month before you birthday,
As you would’ve celebrated your first on the 17th of May.
Mommy can’t sleep, Daddy refuses to eat,
Sending our wedding bands to Heaven resembling something sweet.
I stand up to fight for you, most prized possession of mine,
So many prayers sent with love never for a second slipping my mind.
You are in a place now where pain does not exist,
As forever and always you’ll be, at the top of my list.
Please rest my beautiful blessing from God,
Mommy will see to Melinda’s punishment, as the trial drags on.
I’ll see you forever in each of my nightly dreams,
As you always knew best how! much I Love You
My Little Sweet Pea!

Christopher Bourdin

MY SON, MYLOVE, MY SOUL.

I LOVED YOUBEFORE I FIRSTHELD YOU.

YOU DIDN’TDESERVE TO BEMURDERED.

 YOUWOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THAT TO HIM.

I WOULD HAVEGIVEN MY LIFEIN PLACE OF

YOURS IF ICOULD HAVE. BUTNOW I CAN

ONLY HOPE THATTHE ANGELSHELD YOU TIGHT

 ASI WOULD HAVE HAD I BEEN THERE.

I  WONDER IF THEY KISSED YOUR CHEEK AND

 REMINDEDYOU THAT  ILOVE  YOU SO

MUCH AND WOULDFOREVERGRIEVE FOR YOU.

AND DID THEYWHISPER INYOUR EAR

THAT YOU WOULDNOT GOALONE?

DID THEY KNOWTHAT A PARTOF ME WOULD

GO WITH YOU?  EACH DAY THAT YOUR ARE

 AWAYGETS HARDER TO BARE.   MY WORLD

 HASBECOME A VERY DARK PLACE WITH LOTS

 OFTALL WALLS.  BUT I CANTAKE ONE

MINUTE AT ATIME WITH YOUALWAYS ON

MY MIND,  IN MY HEART AND BY MY SIDE. 

I LOOK SOFORWARD TO THE TIMEI AM WITH

 YOUAGAIN…. FOREVER. I AM SO SORRY THAT

 ICAN’T LET YOU GO, BUT I JUST CAN’T. 

PLEASE FORGIVEME FORTHAT. 

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOVERY MUCH,

MOMMA

WILLIAM "BILLY" TRIMBACH
SEPTEMBER 30, 1966------FEBRUARY 14, 1993
IF ONLY WE HAD KNOWN
If only we had known that day, when he made "her" his wife,
That he was walking innocently towards the end of his life.
As he vowed to love and care for her, till death do they part,
He innocently gave his life to this woman as he gave her his heart.
Exactly one year later, on their anniversary day,
The phone rang with the news that turned our blue skies gray.
My brother had been missing since the previous night,
They had begun the searching at the first sign of daylight.
The evening of that Valentines Day, so many years ago,
We received that haunting phone call that was the final blow.
My brother had been found, on the side of a frontage road,
The word "murder" rang through my mind, as I felt I would explode.
I silently hung the phone up and fell to my knees in tears,
My brother's life was over; we wouldn't be growing old together overthe years.
We suffered the pain of losing a loved one in such a cruel, harsh way,
Please Dear Lord, be with us all and give us peace this day.
Please let us feel your warmth, as you gently touch our hand,
And fill us with the peace of your spirit, as you spread love acrossthe land.
And if you will, Dear Lord I pray, would you deliver a message for me,
Please tell my brother that we miss him and will love him for alleternity.

©Sarah Trimbach Eklund February 2000


NO LIFE

I have no life anymore
Since they came through our door.
My son was all that mattered.
My heart now is torn and shattered.
My only son Gerrick was special; like no other.
He treated them ALL just like a brother.
But they were murderers at heart
Who tore our family apart.
Someday, Someway, they ALL gotta' pay
For taking my Dear Sons' life away.

GERRICK B. DAVIES
January 21, 1986 ~ February 09, 2004
[I found my dear precious son Gerrick murdered in our own home 19 daysafter his 18th birthday]
I love you and miss you so very much my Gerrick!
By: Gerrick's mother,
Diane Davies


Darryl James Tucker

My Star

I am the vessel used to honor your life onearth
I wonder how much love you took with you to heaven
I hear you say I love you in my dreams
I see your love through your brother
I want to hug you one more time
I am your mother
I pretend I can turn back the hands of time
I feel your love everywhere
I touch your picture to feel your presence
I worry if you miss me as much as I miss you
I cry when I cannot hear your voice
I am your mother
I understood God's purpose for your life
I say I will see you again
I dream of being in heaven with you
I try to imagine spending eternity with you
I know I will see you again
I am your mother
LaRonda LaMothe-Tucker


DottyBrantfrom Langhorne, PAAmy Joy's Mom
 
I wrotethison March 2, 2005 inthe morning at work
 
           Missing Amy Joy
 
    Time goes by for me my Amy Joy
    But not for you
    Where you're at there is no time
    Only eternity.

    My mother's heart longs for you
    To see you, hear you, to touch you
    But you're on the other side where
    I can't go so my heart must be
    content to see you in my mind.

    Almost four long years without
    your smile, laugh, and beauty
    Oh how the days go by and then
    the years since you were taken
    from me.
   
    Life does go on it seems - one can't
    stop it even if one trys
    But I will always cry for you and
    long to see my Amy Joy, my baby,
    my little woman, my gift.
    
    Always my love,
    Mother

BROKENDREAMS  

HEREI SIT, ONMY BED OF BROKEN DREAMS

WITHACHINGHEART AND SILENT SCREAMS

THESUN RISESBUT REFUSES TO SHINE,

SOMANYQUESTIONS TORMENTING MY MIND

ITHAS TAKENIT'S TOLL, ALL THIS LOSS,

MYFAITHQUESTIONED, HEART BROKEN, FAMILY TORN APART,

EVILSPATH I'VECROSSED FORTHE SUN RISES BUT REFUSES TO SHINE

SOMANYQUESTIONS TORMENTING MY MIND

EVILHAS REAREDIT'S UGLY HEAD A CHILD GONE,

NOTENOUGH SAID OF THE PAIN ANDANGUISH IT CAUSES US ALL

ACHILD IS GONEBUT I STILL HERE HIM CALL

SOI SIT ANDMEND MY BROKEN DREAMS, WITH ACHING HEART AND SILENT SCREAMS

INMEMORY of

WESLEYALANMATHESON

9-12-1981---5-6-2002 

Iwill wait foryou to come, some day my angel boy, will take me home.

INLOVING MEMORY OFMY BROTHERAND FRIEND... 
PATRICK SEAN COOKE1971/2000 
I'M FREE 
DONT GRIEVE FOR ME, FORNOW IMFREE 
IM FOLLOWING THE PATH GODLAIDFOR ME 
I TOOK HIS HAND WHEN IHEARD HIMCALL 
I TURNED MY BACK AND LEFTITALL 
I COULD NOT STAY ANOTHERDAY
TO LAUGH, TO LOVE, TO WORKORPLAY 
TASKS UNDONE MUST STAYTHATWAY 
I FOUND THAT PEACE ATCLOSE OFDAY 
IF MY PARTING HAS LEFT AVOID 
THEN FILL IT WITHREMEMBEREDJOY 
A FRIENDSHIP SHARED, ALAUGH, AKSS, AH, YES, 
THESE THINGS I TOO WILLMISS 
BE NOT BURDENED WITH TIMESOFSORROW
I WISH YOU THE SUSHINE OFTOMORROW 
MY LIFE'S BEEN FULL, I'VESAVORED MUCH, 
GOOD FRIENDS, GOOD TIMES,ALOVED ONE'S TOUCH 
PERHAPS MY TIME SEEMED ALLTOOBRIEF, 
DON'T LENGTHEN IT NOW WITHUNDUEGRIEF 
LIFT UP YOUR HEARTS ANDSHAREWITH ME 
GOD WANTED ME NOW HE SETMEFREE.... 
We will love you forever,Patrick... Debbie, Billand Chris 

Nicole Velez
There is a quality about you Nicole Velez 
That touches Us deep in our heart 
your fathers and mine! 
This quality is so special 
It sets us quite Together as one! 
luv ur dad and his wife 
Ramon-n-Desree Velez!! 


TheDepths of My Soul
ByEli

TheDepths of MySoul

There’sa burningyearning to be
Extinguished
A Love that knows no limits
A pain that’s persistent
In a Life that’s sooptimistic

 TheDepths ofMy Soul…

Showsa smile thatcrys
A logic that defies
A simplistic way to rely
Even if all wells seem torun dry

TheDepths of MySoul

Isdeeper than mostcan see
Especially the one whomtry tojudge me
Through my eyes my soul is
Plain as smoke
Most never see it and therest 
Lose hope

TheDepths of MySoul

Knowsimperfections
See it quite often
In my reflection
Still I fight for theright 
Direction
In the middle of all thisoppression
The Depths of My Soul

Islike a silverreflector at
Night
Like the violent explosionofstick
Dynomite

Likea cool breezeon
A hot summer night
Like an eagle soaring atit’s 
Highest height

TheDepths of MySoul

Isenduring
Pretty much worth exploring
A keeper of my word andfaith

Andto those whodon’t understand
My soul, Please! Know
How to hate…

TheDepths of MySoul
My Son Eli was shot to death on Friday August 16th
 2002. I found this undated poem among his papers.  I
 didn't even know he wrote poetry...


WONDERING

Iwonder whatdid you think
as your life ebbed away?
If you could have spoken,
what did you have to say?

If youcouldhave lived
I wonder what part
Of the awful incident you'd
have kept in your heart?

Wereyourthoughts pleasant,
or were you troubled and surprised?
Did you communicate with God?
Were there tears in your eyes?

Godknowswhat's best
and he knows our pain,
but how long does it take
for broken hearts to smile again?

OnlyGod knows
about the problems you bore,
and I pray someday
my wondering will be no more!

WrittenbyLinnie H. Neely 
the Grandmother of KP

BigBeautiful Eyes

Oh ! Soft White Clouds and Deep BlueSkies
OpenUp! and let us once again see :
OurBabyTati's Big Beautiful Eyes
OnceAgain ! Filled with Joy over
Playingwith a toy or a little girl, or a little boy.
Takeaway our fears and dry our tears
Ourbabyis an Angel in Heaven Up Above
Wecannot hold her and give her " All of Our Love"
Whowould have known that in a few minutes time-
Ourlives would be lifeless
becauseof this awful crime.
Ourhearts feel as though they have been stabbed with a knife,
Becausesomeone has taken our Tati's Life.
Ourminds they struggle to venture on -
Oursouls cry out everytime we have to see the one,
whodidthis to our Angel !
Oh!Merciful God !
Shewasso innocent - ONLY 2 (Two) Years Old !
           Her Love and Her Spirit so Bright and so Bold !
Wethinkof all the families who suffer this fight !
Dayafter Day !  Night after Night !
OurAngel on Earth is now an Angel in Heaven
Shespreads her wings and flies so freely
Ithinkwhat keeps us going is knowing someday
Wewillsee her Big Beautiful Eyes
andshewill be looking back at us, oh so sweetly.
Untilthen we will wonder - we will struggle and fight for all
thechildren and families who suffer and try with all of theirmight: 
toforget the tragic way
Ourloved ones left this life , and are now nowhere in our sight.
NoFamily ! Should ever have to say their baby or child was
killedor murdered !
EverydayI Pray ! That families not be victims all their lives and
havetolearn to live like this day after day
yearafter year
nightafter night
Seeingtheir lives now in a whole new way !
Nevertobe the same
Livingwith fear-grief and pain !
Oh!   Soft White Clouds and Deep Blue Skies
OpenUpand Let Us See Once Again !
OurBabyTatiana's Big Beautiful Eyes
Filledwith Joy over playing with a toy or a little girl or a
littleboy !
BecauseWe Miss Her and Love Her So !
Our Arms Ache to Hold Her - Give Her Our Love
andWatch Her Grow !

Dedicated to : Tatiana Inaia MarieHall
April26, 1995-May 18, 1997 ( 2 years and 22 days on God's  Earth )
From: Mommy-Daddy-( Me-Maw )
Writtenby : Me-Maw With All Of Her Heart-Soul and Love
     

FirstConnection 
 written by 
Wendy Nicole Dickens 
8/31/76 - 3/25/98

When wefirstmet, for thefirst time, 
it was love at first site
If I had my way I would marry youtonight
We talked on the phone,
it's just not enough
I love you so much
When we split apart my life is rough
sooner or later we will be backtogether
and back in each others arms
Then I can hold you,
until the sunlight of tomorrow
I love you more with each passing day
in my heart our love will always stay
with my hand in yours,
I love you so much, 
I feel like a dove that soars in theair
Thank God for first connectionsand 
thank God I found you

writtenOctober 1993
submitted by her Mom


In Memory of the Unjustified Death of 
Rebekah-Marie Bales Zask 
7/6/80 - 7/19/01 

I imagineherspirit driftingthrough thenight, 
And when I told my sister of the strength I gain 
From knowing she was happy when she died, 
The chills came on me 
I imagined they were her, trying to hug me. 

I imagineherflitting 
The way butterflies do, but a spirit, 
Like a long low string of a cloud, 
As she goes here, there, all through this 
Heartless megalopolis, to tell us all 
That she knows, she cares, she loves still. 

Though sheismuch too still,so 
Robbed of her body, so rudely, 
Bitter. 
Pissed. 
Killed. Killed is not the same 
As merely dead. 

©BarbaraBales 2001 allrightsreserved 


A MOTHER'S LOVE

MICHAELMYSON, MY LOVE, AND MYSOUL ,
YOU WERE TAKEN  FROM ME, BEYONDMYCONTROL. 
YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THE FATE THAT YOUFACED, 
I WOULD GIVE ALL I HAVE, TO HAVE TAKENYOURPLACE.

THEPAIN OFMY LOSS IS SO HARDTO BARE, 
MY LIFE HAS BECOME A LIFE OFDESPAIR. 
I TAKE EACH DAY ONE STEP AT ATIME, 
WITH YOU IN MY HEART AND FOREVER ON MYMIND. 
I KNOW IN MY HEART THERE'S A TIME WHENWE'LLBE, 
FOREVER TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY. 
YOUR NIECE'S WILL KNOW YOU WITH EACHDAYTHEY GROW. 

FOR MYSONMICHAEL PIAZZA

I LOVEDYOUFROM THE FIRST TIMEI HELD YOUIN MY ARMS.
LOVE 
MA

LILLIANWALLA

STEPHEN
Stephen was my Brother and I Loved Himso,
Why God took Him I'll never know,
We were as close as Brothers could be,
Always out playing or climbing a tree,
Sleeping together night after night,
Swimming together when the Sun wasbright,
Then it was Basketball, and runningaround,
Chasing the Girls all over the Town.
Then He met Susie and off they wouldgo,
Out to the Malls, or off to the Show,
Then I met Robbie My soon to be Wife,
I thought We Three would be togetherforLife!
Then came the Wedding, Oh,How happywere we,
He was my Best Man, And I Loved Himyou see,
But as We grew older, We grew apart,
But GOD, when You took Him, You brokemyHeart!
Your Big Brother, Tony

A Thorn

Hebegan tocry as the waterreaches theboat and
rocks it back, forth, back,forth.  Histears roll
slowly down his young face and fallinto theocean below.
"Alone," he thinks, "AM I ALONE?" Ifeelempty - incomplete."
In his hand is a rose free from thornsthatprotected her.
The rose was pulled before it couldblossom,and her blanketwas
stripped except for one tinythorn. The boy pricks hisfinger on the thorn
and drops the dying rose.  On thedeckof the boat, therose lies unopened.
The blood from the boy's fingertricklesdown his hand. He kisses the cut
softly, and the sky gives birth torain.  The rain washesthe boy's tears away,
and he stands still, drinking nature'slifegiver.  Heknows what he has missed
now.  The rose that lay on thedeckalso drinks the rain.and she opens her
petals for the boy.  The boypicks herup and holds herto his cheek.  The boy
then smiles as life washes his tearsaway.....

     by...........     Renee DiCicco, murdered June10th, 2000

Submittedbyher Father CarloDiCicco


 ANGELSCRY

IHARDLYREMEMBER THE DAY YOUDIED
SOME SAY IT RAINED I CANT SAY IT TRUE
BUT IT MAY HAVE BEEN, FOR I KNOW THEANGELSCRIED

I’VENEVERSEEN ANY ANGLES CRY
BUT IM SURE THEY DID
AS THEY STOOD BY YOUR SIDE

AS THESUNFADED AWAY
THE SKYS TURNED TO GRAY
AS THE WORD YELLED WAS YOUR NAME
GOD ALSO DID THE SAME

HE HELDYOUBY YOUR HAND
AND TOOK YOU BY HIS SIDE
AND THE ANGELS STOOD THEIR
AS THEY WATCHED AND CRIED

NOTONLY DOANGELS CRY
FOR WE DO TO JOE
FOR WE CRY EVERYDAY
WONDERING WHY YOU HAD TO GO

BUTKNOW YOURIN A BETTER PLACE
WHERE THE ANGELS NOW SMILE
AND FOR US THERE'S AN ANGEL
WITH YOUR LITTLE FACE

FOR WEALLNOW KNOW
WHEN SOMEONE DIES
NOT ONLY US BUT ANGELS
ALSO CRY.
written for Joe Manuel Moreno, Jr
by Pearl Moreno

 

THEANGELS

Did theangels come from heaven
to help you through that night
Did they feel your terror
And take away your fright

Did theangels bear the pain
That was being done to you
Did they hear your cries of fear
And stayed to help you through

Did theangels hold you tightly
The way I would of done
Did they know how I would feel
And wish they were the one

Did theangels cry out loudly
For the unjustness of your plight
Did they call Lord Jesus
And lead you to the light

Did theangels softly kiss yourcheek
Before you took your leave
Did they remind you how I loved you so
And forever more I'd grieve

Did theangels whisper in yourear
Don't worry you will not go alone
Did they know part of me went with you
The day God called you home

InMemory ofmy daughter Mary
Sadly missed and Loved
     Mom

STEVE
Your death was so tragic and needless,
You were much to young to die,
You had a whole life ahead of you
And when you left, you made everyonecry,
No one understands why you had to go,
It was a shock, really hard to take,
You broke alot of hearts Son,
For you had so much at stake,
We'll never forget you, Dear Steve,
Nor your Memory will never grow old,
We need more like you,
For you had a heart of gold,
You left here in a hurry,
Not knowing you were to die,
We didn't have time for hugs or kisses,
Not even a good-bye.
     Love Mom
(This poem was written after Stevedied in1988)
(Steve's Mom is Sandra)

~MY SON ~

Candles,myson, shine for you
Rosesaddtheir fragrancetoo,
Midstthetears of calling your name
Butonly tohear it come back to the same.

I callyou myson, hopingyou'll hear
Wanting to run and wipe away my tear,
You call, "Don't cry Mom, please donot cry
I am so very happy," you say with asigh.

Thisplace isso beautiful thehills oh sogreen,
Heaven is more glorious that eye haseverseen.
The roses more fragrant, the air oh,so clear
You must not forget that I'm muchhappierhere.

OhMother,don't cry, there isso much to do
But for the time, I send my love downto you.
So now my dear Mom, you have nothingto dread
I'll lie on the hills with flowers tocradlemy head.

Oneday, Mom,you'll know thepeace that ishere.
Please, Mom, don't worry, there's noreasonto fear
That I might be alone, frightened orscared,
I have my God who has so gloriouslyprepared
for us......our whole family.....ahome ofpure joy
Where no one's unhappy, not one girlor boy.

For nofathers or mother, notears do theyshed,
For our Father watches o're us, so wedo nottread
On sorrows or pain, but only blessingsabove
All of these pains, fly away on thewing ofthe dove.

WrittenbyDebby
In Memory of her son Carl

CHRISTOPHER

Godlookedaround his gardenand found anempty place.
He then looked down upon this earth,and sawyour worried face.
He put his loving arms around you andliftedyou to rest.
your carefree loving nature, kindnessandunselfishness
Your roads of life were getting roughthehills harder toclimb 
God decided to close your tiresomeeyes,Leaving your worriesbehind 
he came to you when you needed him,whispering softly 
"Peace Be Thine."

Loosingyouhas broken myheart, 
destorted all of my dreams
an ongoing wait for you to call or avisitthat will never be
A piece of me died with you thatnight 
"the night God called you home" stilltinypieces of me dieeach day
just to know you are really gone
Gods garden must be so beautifulalwaystaking the very best
a garden of Angels from 
all corners of the Earth,
North, South, East and West
So many good hearts, such caring souls
stars of memories, sunlit smiles ofgold

Takecareof  moms ole'heart, takecare of my memories 
holding them close in view
some peacefilled night or joyfulday 
the rest of me will find you !

Loveyou myson 
Mom
Christopher was murdered March 9 or10, 2000
Christopher's Mom is DiDi

~~RAINBOW ~~

YOURTIMEWITH US WAS FAR TOOSHORT...THERE SHOULD HAVEBEEN MORE YEARS...TO SPEND WITH LAUGHTER AND NOT THE TEARS~~ THERE WASNO TIME FOR GOOD-BYES OR KISSES ON THE CHEEK...OUR FAREWELL HAS BEENLEFT, TOTALLY INCOMPLETE~~ YOU HELPED ME PICK OUT YOUR FUNERAL CLOTHESAND TOLD ME TO, "LOOK TO THE LEFT FOR THE RAINBOW"...AND WHEN I SAWTHAT BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW, I KNEW THAT YOU SENT IT TO ME, TO EASE THEPAIN, AS I GO~~ EVEN THOUGH, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART... TO SEEYOUR FACE AND TOUCH YOU AGAIN, WOULD BE THE GRATEST PART~~SO, I WILLCONTINUE TO LOOK FOR YOU IN THE RAINBOW, UNTIL IT IS MY TIME TO ALSOGO........ 

WrittenforJason by Mom.

Goldenhair and eyes of blue

sentdown from Heaven 
you were mommies dream come true

Abeautiful smile 
and a laugh so sweet
you made mommy feel complete

Smallarmswith big hugs togive
you gave mommy a reason to live

Rosepetallips 
with kisses so sweet
it made mommy happy 
just to hear the pitter-patter ofyourtiny feet

Littlewhite casket
they shut the lid
mommy would have gave her life
so you could have lived

Twoyearsof sadness
two years of pain
my grieve has taught me
things I can't explain

Twoyearswithout you
two years apart
has only brought you closer
to mommy's heart.

writtenbyMichelle
mommy to my precious angel HayleyAnna

IFTEARSCOULD BUILD A STAIRWAYAN MEMORIESWERE A LANE, I WOULD WALK RIGHT UP TO HEAVEN TO BRING YOU HOME AGAIN.NO FAREWELL WORDS  WERE SPOKEN , NO TIME TO SAY GOODBYE, YOU WEREGONE BEFORE I KNEW IT AND ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY. MY HEART STILL ACHES INSADNESS AND SECRET TEARS STILL FLOW, WHAT IT MEANT TO LOSE YOU NO ONEWILL EVER KNOW. 

I MISSYOUSO!  LOVE MOM(DEBORAHLANHAM) 
I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU JOHN LANHAM IV!

 ToThe WindBeneath My Wings

A yeartodayhas gone by. Ayear today Istill cry; a year today I still ask why. Don't question they say. SoQuan, I just pray everynight, everyday; looking at the sky above- star,moon, things-- looking mostly to you The Wind Beneath My Wings, the oneI love.
submitted by JaQuan's Mom 


 

TheHowling

Thereis asound
that if you are very lucky in thislife youwill never hear,
(and luckier still if you never have areason to make it)
it’s the howling, the howling.

Thebestactor in the world
could never recreate it,
for you actually have to feel it – youcannot fake it,
it’s the howling, the howling.

I firstheardit early onemorning this March
my mother on the phone,
your brother has been murdered
oh the howling, the howling.

In thecoldmorgue, Dad and Ihad to identify
his little handicapped body stabbed 36times, throat slit,
How could someone do this to one sodefenseless?
Please God No, oh the howling, thehowling.

It cameagaintoo soon – thatafternoon
I had to tell the children,
Your dear uncle, something terrible,how canI ever explain?
have you ever heard a child howling,howling?

Sevenweekslater, it came again
my in-laws said “we want nothing to dowithyou now”,
My husband begs them “please, pleasedon’t”
How could someone? – oh the howling,thehowling.

Christmasnow, months laterstill
on a trip away, my father asleep nearme,
In the middle of the night I hear
again, again – the howling, thehowling.

AndsometimesI can’t help butgo
and turn the shower up so high,
Collapse and cry and here it comes
the howling, the howling.

It istheonly sound not fromyour throat,
it only comes from your tormented soul,
My God, pray you never hear
that howling, that howling.

WrittenbyKimberly Jess
Dedicated to her beloved brother FrankStephen Yazum
who was murdered March 23, 2000

Ourfavorite prayer torecite together***
GOD GRANT ME THESERENITY TO ACCEPT THETHINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND THEWISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
You, my sweetbabybrother always toldme to live life to it's fullest each and everyday.
To Patrick
From his sisterDebbieD.

LENIERE

Amilliontimes we've neededyou, 
A million times we've cried; 
If love alone could have savedyou 
You never would have died. 
If all the world was ours to give 
We would give, yes, and more. 
To see you coming up the steps 
To hear your voice, to see yoursmile, 
To sit and talk with you a while. 
To see you in the same old way 
It would be our fondest day. 
A heart of gold stopped beating, 
Two eyes closed to rest, 
God broke our hearts to prove tous 
He takes only the best. 

We missyousomuch........... 
Your children,Raekwon, Keiayven, LaShae 
Mom,Nana,Ayanna, Jamin, Patrick,Bettina,Beverly, Kisha,Jessiand many friends and family 

In LovingMemory ofPatrick Cooke 
My Brother andTrueFriend

When Imust leave youfor a little while
Please do notgrieveand shed wild tears
And hug yoursorrow toyou through theyears,
But start outbravelywith a gallantsmile
And for my sakeand inmy name
Live on and doallthings the same
Feed not yourloneliness on empty days
But fill eachwakinghour in useful ways
Reach out yourhand incomfort and incheer
And I in turnwillcomfort you and holdyou near
And never, neverbeafraid to die
For I am waitingforyou in the sky!!

HelenSteiner Rice

PatrickCooke's Big Sis
Debbie D

MissingYou

I'llnever forget theday
My life wasturnedupside down
I couldn'tbreathe
I didn't knowwhat tosay
The tears fellto theground

I wasn'tready for youto go
To claim yourplace inheaven
Where thestreets arepaved with gold
Where the riveroflife flows
A place wherelifetruly begins

You werenot only mybrother
But my bestfriend
A bond no othercouldever compare
A connectionthat cannever be severed
My love for youwillnever end

    But the pain runs so deep within
    Pouring throughthe hole in my heart
    A hole that cannever be filled
    A place I savefor you
    Until we meetagain
    In heaven wherewe will never be apart
    Ever again

Untilthen I will keepyou in my dreams
I will hold onto thememories
I will nevergive uphope
As hard as itseems
We will betogetheragain

In lovingmemory of myBrother
~Your BrotherChris~
Chris Cothren

          LOST 

Itsbeen ayear since I lost you
Wondering how I could go on
What would I do?

Youwere theone who taughtme 
to live and helped me out
But now your gone
How could that be?

Now whowillteach and love
my boys
Bring laughter to them and 
All the joys?

The wayagrandfather supposeto do
From the day you got that name
I knew my kids were blessed
Cause their grandfather was you.

But, welostyou now
and they miss you so much
for you were their one a father and all
for they had no such.

They'llmeetup with you someday
catch up to the lost times they'vespentalone
hugs and kisses will go on for ever
as they meet up there in their newhome.
    love you daddy,alwaysPearl Moreno
 

"WHERETO GO"

Watchme walkaway, 
I am floating today, 
I can feel the way, 
your words have decayed. 
Can you see me here? 
The world is very clear, 
answers start to appear, 
I can see your fear. 
Now I know, 
where to go, 
now I know, 
who to show, 
your love was, 
a friend to me. 
my love now, 
sets me free. 

-GOLDIE
by Michael Goldie-Ryder
1978-1999

YOUWERE ASBRIGHT AS THE SUN,
SWEET AS THE FLOWERS.
I'M MISSING YOU KYLE,
BY PASSING HOURS.
SHINING BLUE EYES,
WIDE OPEN SMILE.
THE MEMORIES OF YOU,
OF MY SWEET LITTLE KYLE.
I SAW YOU LYING THERE,
SO PEACEFUL AND CONTENT.
I BEGAN TO CRY,
FOR IN AND OUT OF LIFE YOU WENT.
I CAN STILL REMEMBER,
YOUR VOICE THAT DAY.
SAYING KNEE-KNEE I LOVE YOU,
BUT SLOWLY FADING AWAY.
ITS HARD WITH YOU NOT HERE,
US BEING SO FAR APART.
BUT YOUR KEPT CLOSE AND NEAR,
ALWAYS IN MY HEART.
YOUR BIRTHDAY IS SOON,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET KYLE.
I WISH YOU THE STARS AND THE MOON,
AND HUGS AND KISSES WORTH A MILE.
YOUR IN EACH OF MY PRAYERS,
AND EVERY WISH I MAKE.
BEING TAKEN FROM US,
WAS ONE OF GODS MISTAKES.
I LOVE YOU TO DEATH,
I WANT YOU TO KNOW.
NO ONE CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE,
YOUR SPIRIT NEED NOT GO.
I KNOW YOUR IN HEAVEN NOW,
SAFE IN GODS CARE.
GOD MADE YOU A GUARDIAN ANGEL,
UNTIL MOM AND ME GET THERE.
DEDICATED TO MY 3YR OLD BROTHER:K.J.
MISS YOU BUNCHES,LOVE BIG SISTERTIFFANY 

  SoYoung
So Young! So Young!
Your life's blood spilled
On ground uncaring, cold.
So Young! So Young! 
To have been killed
Such evil life unfolds.

Soyoung!Could not be long ago
In mother's arms you lay
So trusting as all babies know
That fathers love will stay.

Soyoung!Could be justyesterday
With family and friends,
In childhood you would run and play
Such faith as life begins!

Soyoung! Solittle time tolearn
From problems and mistakes
So little time life's joys to earn,
When young life evil takes.

Soyoung! Soyoung!
In grief and pain
We see you lifeless lie.
So Young! So Young! 
With grief and pain
We have to say good-bye.

InLovingMemory of ourdaughter Tracy
Murdered  11/1/91
Your Memory Will Always be with us!
Love  Mom , Dad,  Stacy

SamanthaRhodes Murdered at theage of 12
08/04/1985 -- 03/24/1998
Poem written by mom:Brenda Bratton

“ IMust LetYou Go”

I go tosleepeach night andyou’re not tucked in your bed, Morning comes and you’re not here, Ilisten for your voice, not one word is said. I began my day missingyou, not knowing what to say or do. I look into the mirror only to seesadness upon my face, The day has ended with God’s grace. 

Tearsbeganas I lay still inmy bed, Thoughts of you tumbling in my head. I weep, until I fall tosleep. Awaken by the smell of your hair, I see you in a soft whiteglare. A beautiful blonde angel comes to my feet, she begins to speak.Momma, close your eyes for I remain in your memory forever,I’m where Iwant to be, no more tears no more fears.I’m safe in the arms of myfarther for he knows how much you cared”. He knows the love we onceshared, So now momma, you must let me go. My dear little girl,"Remember me" as you walk the streets of gold, I knew you were chosento be my guardian angel, as he once chose you to be my littlegirl. 

"Samantha, thelittle girlI must letgo." 


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